Family + Personal goals for 2012

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I am not usually one for New Year’s resolutions but as this year has drawn to an end I have noticed the popularity of bloggers and friends on Facebook setting “goals” for 2012. This stuff appeals to me. I feel like I need to put a bit more thought into next year, be more focused and zone in on areas of my life that are crying out for a little attention. So here they are, my goals for 2012:

Family goals

• To guide our children with gentle and loving discipline. Make our relationship the priority over behaviour. Choose my words thoughtfully and constantly reflect and improve on the connection I am making with Finn and Harper.

• Commit to an in -house date night with Lachie. This evening will be a computer free zone.

• Find and maintain a regular organised activity outside of our home for Harper.

Personal goals

• Devote one afternoon per week to an exercise activity that is mine and mine alone.

• Connect more with family and friends outside of the internet.

• Complete project ‘Documenting Delight’, capturing an image of our family each day for the entire year of 2012. See the richness in my life, the joy, the laughter and record it. Make the effort to journal alongside each photograph. Use this project as a way to expand my photography skills, push myself and commit to learning new skills and concepts. I am this family’s record-keeper and this year I will do that job justice.

So I think these are manageable. I am going to give them my all and hope that when the New Year rolls by in Dec 2012 I am reflecting on a happy and productive year.

Happy Second Birthday baby girl

Dear Harper May,

        The tradition is that I sit down on the eve of your birthday and write you a letter to sum up your year with us, reflecting on the person you are and the girl you are becoming. I’m a month late. It’s been a busy end to the year so please forgive me baby girl. You are now two years old. My wish for you to grow big and strong and healthy has been granted in your second year. Much like your fast development in your first year you have continued to gain skills at a remarkably fast pace again this year. It often seems that you reach milestones without us even noticing and when we make a fuss about it you look at us as if to say “ It’s no biggie”.  You walk, run, jump, hop and dance as if you have been doing so for decades. You are so at ease with your body and how it moves. No thought seems to go into how you piece all of it together. It just happens and it is a delight to watch.

Your language and communication has developed in a very different sequence to your big brother’s. While Finn was the master at labelling objects at a very young age, you were quite happy to listen to the noise of our household and then take us by surprise at around 18 months when you just began talking clearly and confidently. Never a fan of repeating words, you would just go about your business and casually drop new words as you played. Now as you hit 25 months you hold your own in our family conversations and discussions and always let us know how you feel (sometimes not always verbally though – cue tantrums ;)).

The big part of your year would have to be your connection with me, your “Mumma Bear”. From birth you have been the most deliciously affectionate baby. I have held you, worn you, slept by your side for the majority of the past two years. While you love your Daddy dearly, you rarely let me out of your sight and to put it lightly you can get quite distressed if we are separated.  It has been a vastly different experience to our parenting approach with your brother Finn. While I knew before you arrived that we would do things differently, follow our instincts more, take your lead as much as possible I didn’t realise how much this new “way” would change me as a parent and as an individual. I feel as though you were given to me as a teacher, to teach me to slow down, reflect more and accept challenges without anger and resentment but with patience and gratitude. Let’s just get it out there, you haven’t been blessed with the sleeping gene. You don’t settle easily to sleep and you don’t like to stay asleep, never have, possibly never will. There are days where I cry in frustration and then there times when I just go with it and soldier on. More than anything I have accepted this part of your babyhood/toddlerhood. While my days and nights would be a whole lot easier if you slept peacefully I don’t think I would have gained the added strength I needed to get through these hard sleeping phases and found ways to view your sleep issues as something beyond a problem to be “solved.”

You continue to breastfeed and quite frankly you love it much more than I do. Apparently my milk is better than ice-cream. I have tried this diversion tactic and my boobs won.  I am a huge breastfeeding advocate. Huge. However I never imagined that I would be feeding any of my children into their toddler years. I didn’t oppose it, I just didn’t think it was for me. There are many parts of breastfeeding you that I struggle with, yet so many that I love. Feeding beyond 12 months in this country is not super common and I often feel that I need to hide the fact that I am still feeding you from the general public. I seek support in this area from online groups who share my views on extending feeding and a small collection of friends who also feed beyond the one year mark. Despite my frustrations, I continue, not because I am a martyr but because it is part of you and a strong force in our relationship. I will not take it away until I know you are ready and will part from it with ease and comfort.

Born on the first day in December you are our Summer baby through and through. You have bought and continue to bring sunshine into our family. You melt us with your warm sayings (“Let’s snuggle up tight”) and make us thankful for all that you have taught us.

Keep growing big and strong baby girl.

Love, Mumma Bear. xx